I thought I had imposter syndrome but it was something else entirely. Something I didn't want to admit to myself in my last job. Maybe you can relate...

I often felt overwhelmed, like I would be found out, that I didn't belong, and that I wasn't good enough to be there. Despite loving my manager and believing in the organisation, my belief in myself was minimal and as a result I didn't enjoy any win that I made, and every 'fail' was catastrophic.

Maybe you can guess what the problem was?
No, it wasn't imported syndrome. That was just the symptom.

If you're experiencing imposter syndrome then something needs to be addressed. But the imposter syndrome itself is not necessarily what needs to be 'fixed'.

It was way bigger.

I was giving my power away.
Here is how....

I was letting myself stay stuck in the story of 'I'm not good enough for this job, and I don't know how to do this.'.

The more I brought into that narrative, the more every challenge I faced became EVIDENCE of the fact I was doomed for that role.

The truth was I could have made it work.

I had a manager who supported me. They had training and systems in place to up level and upskill. So why didn't I?

This is where the power of coaching really shows it's magic. I could have changed my mindset and imposter syndrome about the job.

However the truth was that my true ambitions and values were not being met.

It took working with a coach to learn this about myself. I was convinced it was just my imposter syndrome. I thought if I could just fix my mindset about the job everything else would be okay. But that wasn't it. What was happening is that my secret dreams were being suppressed and I was forcing myself to fit a mould that no longer fit me. I thought more money could fix it. But getting more money and a 'better' job made the problem worse not better.

Money only ever amplifies whatever is already there.

I wanted to be 'grateful' for the opportunity. I knew it was the 'safe' thing to do, to stay and make it work, make it 'look good for the CV'.

Does this sound familiar?

The truth was my ambition lay elsewhere. Every day that I was pretending I still wanted this career because it was something I once wanted, I was betraying myself.

Admitting to yourself you have changed is hard. Admitting to yourself that you want more for your life is scary. Realising you are trapped by golden handcuff's is suffocating. Taking the steps to make the change can be overwhelming, especially when you know what you don't want, yet you don't really know what you do want. I had a coach every step of the way to help me figure this out and actually make the change. 

That's why I do what I do. So you don't have to sit in indecision, worry, fear, scarcity, wanting and wondering if, how and when.

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